31

Happy Birthday to Me

Me enjoying a birthday feast.

I’ve turned 31. Last year when I turned 30, I thought I was going to finally have another amazing successful year of life. I personally felt like I hadn’t had a great year since I turned 27. That year I got married, moved abroad, and felt I had so many fun adventures waiting around the corner for me. It was all new and exciting. But after that year, everything became slow, stagnate, and a little bleak. I wasn’t happy and I couldn’t find a path back to that feeling of excitement for the future. When 30 came around, I decided I needed to make some moves, and I did. But I still felt I was taking two steps forward and 3 steps back somehow. My year of 30 was filled with heartache, trials, and tribulations. Then on the day I turn 31, all my hard work and heartache seems to have started to pay off. I am starting again to see that exciting future ahead. I can see that lifestyle that I’ve dreamt of coming in to focus. I still have a ways to go and I’m terrified of messing things up, since I am so close to getting the things I’ve always wanted in life.

So here is to 31, a year were I hope to break through and come into my spotlight on the stage of my own life. Here is to never giving up on dreams and aspirations. To taking deep breaths and telling anxieties & fears to go “f**k themselves”.

Today was a very good day.

xoxo Kenosha Renae